poetry

.Not a day less

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From ever to ever leads to forever
Not a day less will do
We spend so much time being there for others
But I will not leave my forever alone
I have finally found my forever home…

From you, I have found that the uncertainties in my life
were only moments in time…
Like a handless clock with numbers,
time is found only in my mind
But forever seems to be so real when it’s with you

My forever exists only between us two
and even though forever is from ever to ever
Not a day less, from you, will do.

For me, you are the one
Truth in love is priceless
But true love always pays a price
Yet, nothing will keep me from loving you

You are the rest, the best and the untold stories of my life
With you I have less time and more forever
Within you I can finally rest.

True love is give and take
It is sacrifice
But there is nothing that can keep me from loving you
Not rain, storm, fire or ice
Within you I have found my forever…
Never again will I be alone
Because within you I have found my forever home.

 

.in my life… no one compares to you

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“There are places I’ll remember…

All my life, though some have changed

Some forever, not for better

Some have gone and some remain…

All these places have their moments…

With lovers and friends I still can recall.

Some are dead and some are living

In my life, I’ve loved them all…

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new.”

These lyrics have always touched my heart. They ring true now more than ever. Love is a beautiful gift. I’ll never understand how the human heart works… but the love I have for myself and for my tribe, it’s all I need. And it keeps me going. It gives me a reason to open my eyes in the morning. It gives me a reason to inhale the world around me and absorb the enormous amounts of life and peace that fill my soul. I’m blessed. I’m happy. I’m grateful. For once. In my life, I now know why it all happened the way it did. I now see where I’m going. And I now can enjoy the ride. This love…. is something new. 

In my life…. I love you more ❤

This love is something new

.the moments when I miss

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Lost moments with loves I never knew…Missing the memories I never got to make…

Day dreaming of moments that I know I’ll never have… Questioning why things were never as they seemed. 

Longing for the person I had envisioned her to be. Missing what I had hoped she’d be but never was.

 How can you miss someone that was never real? 

There are times I wish I had her…..

To call and cry my fears too…..

To embrace and know I’m safe…..

I long for the non-judgmental love that a mother gives her child. For the support and guidance and unwavering compassion….

I long for what I never had. For one I’ve never met. 

I see them on the streets… I see them in the homes of my friends…. in the stores, books and movies….

But I’ve never known one to call my own. 

I long for the mother that I once built in my head. 

I long for the family that was never really real. 

I long. 

I fear I always will. 

.sometimes

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sometimes we wonder
sometimes we wander
sometimes we stay in one place
often times we worry
often times we scurry
through the days in our current time and space

our hearts do the feeling
our minds do the thinking
our souls doing all and everything in-between
but, who do we follow?
who do we need?
what will we do to succeed?

why do we falter?
why do we second guess?
everything our heart feels…
and the thoughts our mind possess?

what is it that scares us?
what is it that holds us back?
what is it that chokes us so calmly and slow
that we can’t seem to stay on track?

we are like the lone rider
on a trail of our own
no support group to rally
even in our own home

but knowing we don’t need them;
the ones who claim to be but aren’t…
is our key to ultimate growth

fake smiles and fake clapping
they peer over your shoulder
pretending they care
when truly, your suffering is what they thrive on

open all the windows and the let the smoke cascade out
the battle you fight is more than internal
it’s all them without a doubt
be bigger in mind, in spirit and in hope
you have to look beyond
the picture that their words spoke

you are only who you are
not what they make you think
you are only who YOU are
not the Kool aide they made you drink

open your eyes and look closer
they have come between you and your ambition
you are their poster girl with no poster
you are all that they want to be

 

 

 

 

.bass

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Back beat
Still mind
Wandering through the street
Light feet
Flow through my hips
Pulsating through my finger tips
Heavy chest
Mellow soul
The rhythm carries me high
Painted with lyrics
Notes flowing low and deep
The beat moves its way up my body
Through me you can see the notes
The sway. The flow.
What you hear is what I feel

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.sweetpea

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Sweet pea
Apple of my eye
The things you do to me
Make my heart sigh
Darling dear
Don’t you dare cry
We might not have a lot
But we do have time

Throughout the many years
No matter where we have been
The two of us…
Have been beyond best of friends

From here; where we go…
It’s up to you and me
From here; where we go…
It’s our soul’s destiny

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.when I say I love you

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When I say I love you
What do you hear?
When I say I love you
Do you think it is sincere?
When I say I love you
Do you realize what that means?

When I say I love you
It means I hold you dear
It means I’ve torn down a wall
I’ve let my boundaries fall…
When I say I love you
I’ve given a portion of myself
I’ve decided to trust in you…
When I say I love you
I need and want you to hear;

That my heart has scars
From the battles I’ve endured
That my soul has ached
And I don’t always know the
right words to say
But I love so deeply
And I love so sure
And when I say I love you
My love is deep and pure.

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