Lost moments with loves I never knew…Missing the memories I never got to make…
Day dreaming of moments that I know I’ll never have… Questioning why things were never as they seemed.
Longing for the person I had envisioned her to be. Missing what I had hoped she’d be but never was.
How can you miss someone that was never real?
There are times I wish I had her…..
To call and cry my fears too…..
To embrace and know I’m safe…..
I long for the non-judgmental love that a mother gives her child. For the support and guidance and unwavering compassion….
I long for what I never had. For one I’ve never met.
I see them on the streets… I see them in the homes of my friends…. in the stores, books and movies….
But I’ve never known one to call my own.
I long for the mother that I once built in my head.
I long for the family that was never really real.
I fear I always will.